For the life of me I cannot get this blog thing! I have went forward, backed up and stalled and I’m still at a lost at where I want this Blog to go. I have wrote about my abuse and played the victim, a survivor and played the tough shit who could handle anything and even the thriving older woman who was just tired and fucked up but yet nothing satisfies me. I know I want to blog but I’m so pass all this bullshit I listed above. Yes I was abused, Yes I survived and thrived and yes I can say in all certainly, I am an older woman who is tired and definitely fucked up. So where do I go from here?
I know I have never lost the wanderlust gypsy pull on my whole being. I need to move, to travel and explore. I hate Ontario! Well hate is such a strong word for a beautiful place that is home to four of the five Great Lakes and I’ve even been fortunate enough to live next to three of those. I guess I just miss the mountains and the beautiful west coast. We have plans to move over west once Michael’s injury lawsuit is settled but until then it’s either bloom or wilt gracefully.
As you can see I have deleted all past blogs as if that will make it like it all didn’t happen and I have yet another new beginning on life.
Fall does this shit to me every year! It makes me take stock of where I am and where I am going and to hell with what I have done but I still love this crazy season
Kath, the way I found my way to blog was just write being yourself. Readers will know when it is coming from the real you. Just start writing, anything, about anything. You may hit the delete button more than the publish button, but don’t stop, just keep writing. Something will eventually click and then you are on your way!